I don’t know how to explain how devastated I am. I never thought I could be so upset about losing something material. I feel foolish- the way I have cried until I gagged. The way I couldn’t sleep and then slept too much. That I’m hungry but don’t feel like eating. The fact that I didn’t go to work today.
Last night I went to the Contemporary Art Museum to see Hafiz and Matt play. I had met them onblog and wanted to support local musicians. When I left around 9, I discovered that my car had been broken into. The small back passenger window had been shattered. A bag, emptied of my liturgical music books, and my black case of CDs had been stolen. Probably around 100 CDs.
Those of you who know me well might understand. Music is all that really matters to me. That collection was a definition of who I am and today, I feel like a part of me is gone. Many of the CDs, I won’t be able to replace. The one a Canadian I met in Amsterdam gave me. The mix CDs made by friends over the years whose artist names I don’t remember and they won’t likely either. The Willy Porter CD burned by my ex-boyfriend with his handwriting on it. And the Javier Mendoza Band CDs- early demos and those autographed by retired band members. Others might be quite difficult, but possibly replaceable. I already paid the library for the Beatles set that was stolen. Painfully, the CDs that meant the most to me will likely be the ones in the dumpster today. The thief is surely disappointed by my musical taste.
Most unfortunately, my insurance (neither car nor renters) is going to cover the CDs. The window will likely cost less than my $500 deductible. Money I don’t have. But a glitch says that if the CD player had been portable, it would have come from my apartment and therefore the player and CDs would be covered by renters. But since it was an in-dash player (regardless of the fact that it was not touched) the CDs are not covered. I would guess that aside from the immense emotional attachment I had to my CDs, they cost easily over $1000. At least.
I will be composing the best list I can of what is lost. I have already called certain friends who I know have artists I like. But I would appreciate any help in burning CDs until I can afford to replace them.